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That Was Rough!

It was a regular Saturday afternoon. I was at the Kiwanis Club enjoying computer time. However, my computer time was different than most other kid’s computer time.

Most of the kids were playing games. I was learning about the computer’s operating system by exploring various DOS commands, and learning how to program in BASIC by exploring various games’ source code.

This particular Saturday, there were a couple of new kids. They saw me working on my computer, and thought I didn’t know what I was doing. They proceeded to tell me how to start playing games.

I didn’t have any social skills, so initially I just ignored them.

But then they got aggressive, and starting pressing buttons on my keyboard.

After a while, I got frustrated and hit their hand.

The next thing I know, we’re all dismissed and these two kids start following me home. They suggest that they just want to make-up and be friends. They sounded sincere, yet I didn’t trust them.

Almost to my house, they invite me into a building. I don’t know why, but I went inside with them into a stairwell.

There, they both proceeded to hit me, jump on me, and yell at me. It was horrible.

After a few minutes, I managed to run out, crying all the way home.

My sister, Rahat, consoled me. She got the story and called the club to complain.

Word may have gotten back to the parents of those two kids, but nothing else was done.

I’m not sure if that had me stop going to the Kiwanis Club or not. Would things turn out very differently if I was just able to communicate my computer situation with the other kids?

Many years later, I was buying ice cream from an ice cream truck in my neighborhood, and somebody approached me. As usual, I didn’t recognize who it was. Then the person said with a giggle, “We beat you up pretty bad in that stairwell, didn’t we?”

I walked away and walked home.

MUZIK to Your Ears!

Hi there everyone!!

In grade four, I had a friend who was a bad influence on me. His name was Timmy, and he coerced me into causing trouble, getting myself into mischief, being crude, and even stealing money!

One time we were in music class, and instead of paying attention to the teacher, Timmy was telling me how bad our school was. He said that so many other schools got to use musical instruments, and we had nothing!

The First Major Chord

Our teacher overheard this conversation and interrupted. She explained how the first instrument mankind had was their vocal chords. Mastering our own bodies helps us in mastering any instrument.

This teacher, whose name I don’t remember, made an impact on me. I wanted to sing! However, though I was intrigued by music, my efforts didn’t make my singing any better.

In retrospect, I can see how that happened. None of the song lyrics were printed big enough for me to read, and I couldn’t see anything written on the blackboard. But I don’t want to be a broken record as I’ve shared this frustration before…

The Next Measure

In high-school, it was compulsory to take one “arts credit” which could be either a visual arts, drama, or music class. All three options were not available to me, because of my “sight” impairment.

Through my involvement in Christian youth parliament, I was again exposed to the joy of singing. I was inspired to write poems, and wrote the theme song to two of the annual youth parliaments.

Sharpening the Notes

After participating in many personal development programs while in high-school, I began to adopt the attitude that there are no barriers in the pursuits of my passions.

With this new attitude, in my last year of high-school I enrolled in grade nine music class and learned how to play the viola. I had to choose the viola, because all the other string instruments were bigger and would create more distance between my eyes and the sheet music I needed to see.

My sheet music was magnified by a factor of five so I could see it. But I still had to be so close to the paper, that I wasn’t able to use my bow. Instead, I would have to learn the music by plucking my fingers on the strings.

My hearing was never great. I’m tone-deaf, and this was confirmed when I took a hearing pitch test and failed miserably. What’s worse, is when most people hear that I am legally blind, they assert (sometimes insist) that I must have superpower hearing capabilities.

Down an Octave

I never got good at playing the viola. So, the following year, I took piano lessons, which I paid for out of my own pocket. It was fun, but it was still a visual struggle.

The next year, I paid for private singing lessons. That gave me more confidence, but I don’t think it has affected my performance.

Maybe I’m just not meant to sing or play a musical instrument. God knows, I’ve tried.

Techie Pitch

Immersed in computers as a teenager, I learned to program all sorts of music and sound effects that were very impressive. I worked all summer at a job so that I could afford to upgrade my PC speaker into a professional sound card. It was called the “AdLib” Music Card. It was so cool.

I did my grade twelve independent study on producing a digitized song on my computer.

The following month, a new “SoundBlaster” card came out, which did so much more than the AdLib card. And it just wasn’t a fad. The SoundBlaster would become the default standard for all sounds on PC’s, lasting to this day.

Baseline Rhythm & Blues

Should I just be a big fan? My favorite band of all time is Bon Jovi. I’ve been to several of their concerts over the years, but have always gotten very poor seats either because of pricing, or because of supply.

One day I was at a charity auction that claimed to have front-row-seats to a Bon Jovi concert. Even though I already had tickets, I bid the highest price because I wanted front row seats! However, when I did go to the concert, I was informed that my tickets were only general admission! It was difficult to even enjoy that concert after such a horrible letdown.

Getting Vocal

Just last night, I was with friends at a karaoke bar, and was encouraged to sing. Since I couldn’t see the big screen, we made special arrangements for me to sing in the DJ booth where I could look at the source tablet screen closely.

That helped, but the text wasn’t really big enough. Plus, my whole body was in an awkward position with the microphone, my face, and the tablet scrunched together. Good thing I picked one of my favorite Bon Jovi songs, which I had memorized back as a teenager.

I made a few mistakes—my memory isn’t perfect. And it also doesn’t feel great to be confined to a small set of songs I have memorized, instead of having full access to all of the songs I am able to recall just by song title.

Jazzing It Up a Little

What if I was encouraged to take one of the compulsory high-school credits in the arts?

I wouldn’t have wanted to do “visual arts” because I still don’t want to do that now. (I’ve experimented with paint café’s.)

In music, I still wouldn’t be great, but perhaps I would have enjoyed the process a whole lot more.

What about drama? I’ve been doing improv for many years and loving it tremendously. Some would say I am pretty good at it now. But how good could I have been if I started taking drama at the beginning of high-school?

It’s never too late… Except part of “improv” is musical improv. Should I take “musical improv” classes now?

Final Echo

Do you like irony? My most notable accomplishment thus far is competing at the District 60 regional Toastmasters conference with an improvised speech. The speech topic given to all the contestants was “music”. I won first place.

It’s also noteworthy that my last girlfriend was a sound reiki master.

Fade to Silence

OK, so I have another success as well. I co-produced the song, “Let’s love the world together…” which is available on iTunes. Check it out.

Let’s love the world together…

Love,
[)anish /|hmed, blind visionary

Understand the Understandings of Understanding

I'm only responsible for what I say not for what you understand.Hi there everyone!!

It is my understanding that there is much to understand about understanding.

It’s not binary – it’s not that we either understand or we don’t understand. Rather, there is a whole spectrum of gradients in understanding anything.

And more than that, there’s other dimensions to understanding which may give us more empowerment in our awareness with information, people, and life.

Understanding Something

Friends who understand what we do not say...This may be what most people understand as “understanding”. It is the ability to process information in a structured fashion which produces consistent results.

A basic example is mathematics. You probably understand that 2 + 2 = 4. You understand much more than that. You understand numbers and how to add them. You could do this with “almost” any number.

We’ll keep it simple by not getting philosophical with negatives, fractions, and imaginary numbers. So, realize that even this definition of “understanding something” could be unclear because the scope or depth of the understanding in this realm is not specifically defined.

If you live in a house, then you simply understand that you live in a house, without knowing the exact definition of a house.

Understand that You Understand

The biggest communicationproblem is we do not listen to understand. We listen to reply.Recalling information is the foundation of understanding. Or is it?

Perhaps you haven’t done long division in years. You may not remember how to do it, but given several hours, you’d pick it up pretty quickly, right?

You may not have ridden a bicycle in decades, but it won’t take you long to rediscover balance.

If you’re familiar with your neighborhood, you understand that you can locate any place faster than most people, without knowing where that place is exactly right now.

So, you may not “understand” something in this moment, yet know that you understand it from a larger context.

Understand that Someone Understands

Those who judge will never understand, and those who understand will never judge.We use many things we may not understand.

For example, we (most of us) use electricity, appliances, and the Internet without understanding how they work. We never knew how they worked, and we may never know how they work. Yet we use them ubiquitously throughout our lives.

We understand that other experts, engineers, and inventors understand how these things work.

Thankfully, there are new babies born who will become the new experts of our society.

Understand that You Will Understand

When you know too much psychology, you can't get mad....Sometimes, understanding is a matter of faith.

When I first started as an entrepreneur, I had very little understanding of what entrepreneurship would be like. I had preconceived notions, and I understood that there was much I didn’t know that I didn’t know about entrepreneurship.

We borrow understanding from the future whenever we take on a huge commitment. This is true whether we want to become a doctor, an actor, or a philanthropist.

As a teenager, we may not understand why parents to the things they do. However, we may have heard the adage that when we’re parents, all of that will make sense.

Understand that You Will Never Understand

Other People's Journey?Isn’t it obvious that there will be things that all of us will never understand?

How many times have we ended an intimate relationship, not understanding what caused the hardships and break-ups?

Some of us have had to deal with so much adversity in our lives that it is overwhelming. We’ve been taught to find meaning in these experiences, and that helps sometimes. Other times, we may come to the conclusion that we will never understand why.

This world is full of horrible things that are unconscionable. Yet this dysfunctional world keeps functioning.

Understand that You Don’t Need to Understand

Nothing hurts a good soul and kind heart more than to live amoungst people who can't understand it.In the realm of spirituality and religions, there are many things that we’re told to simply accept and not try to understand at all.

This is the paradox that manifests in believers who even get presented with information that contradicts their framework and history.

Their understanding is based on indoctrinated or channeled convictions. Their understanding doesn’t need data, experience, nor any form of validation.

The utility of this form of understanding can be found in some segments of conspiracy theorists, network marketers, global politics, or corporate cultures.

Understand that You Understand Nothing

Trying to understand the behavior of some people is like trying to smell the color 9.Every understanding can be negated through a transcended form of new understanding.

Understanding the power of gravity has given us greater awareness about our world, yet kept many people from believing that humans could fly.

But disregarding that understanding, planes were eventually manufactured. And now there are millions of people flying everyday.

Everything we know is just a temporary understanding that helps facilitate a new understanding. To understand something completely new, start from knowing that we understand nothing.

Get it? Got it.

If you always do what you've always done, you'll always get what you've always got!Let’s love the world together…

Love,
[)anish /|hmed, blind visionary